it is the moment that you feel tired of explaining yourself. tired to defend.tired to fight. there are times that you wanna just with the flow...but you know you cant. moments that you are not quite sure if you should build a wall around you...sometimes that might have been better. dun know dun know... how long i could stay vulnerable...tired.real tired. time that you wanna give up doing the things you are supposed to do. i hate to be caught in between. it's too tiresome. i no longer know what i should say and what i should. lord you need to teach me.....i dun know what im doin any more....not any more....lord pls..give a way a way that only you can open.........and i only wish to live by your grace...sometimes just to be a little more normal...................................too much too much too much to hold inside....too much o lord too much to hide....tired and sick.....tired of shattered dreams tired of giving up.. tired just to be in the norm.tired to be caught.tired not to have anyone to lend a shoulder.tired i no longer know who to turn to.and even when there is what i can say. what's wrong. i no longer know.whats right i m blinded..i need to hide...hide myself in a place. hide myself just somewhere so i can see your face....then maybe maybe/....that which is too much on my shoulder and my mere thoughts can be put away...slowly life is takin me away from myself...when i look into mirror i ask myself...oo who's that i see...that heart that's turn cold....that heart whose tears had dried up....
tryin too hard...trying too hard... to keep that smile and laughter...
but then again that is the only way i can keep myself alive and living....
o dun know i really dun know anymore.....
